Thursday, 2 April 2015

It's been too long - sorry folks. But even Ben gets writers block sometimes.

Sometimes I get asked questions.

What are some of the long term effects you have experienced and is this still a part of your daily life?

Well, I don't like working with MAPPA... and I don't appreciate them asking me how my sex life with Lisa is going. My sex life with Lisa is fine, thanks, now do one.

Long term, well, I'm going to say that I can't change how I think. I am attracted to 14-18 year old girls, and no matter what I do, that attraction remains. All I can do is control how I behave,

Is it a part of my daily life - no, not daily. But yes, it still affects me.

I can't simply hop on a train to Paris for the day, I have to plan seven days ahead. I can't simply move house, my new address has to be approved and checked out. I can't pick up a female hitch-hiker, just in case, I can't have a random conversation with a stranger, just in case.

It affects me in ways that you wouldn't expect as well. I won't trouble you with what,

The law has recently changed - my convictions will be spent in a few years.  But until then I still need to disclose my offences to my employer (normally they are already aware and supportive) and to potential relationships. I need to be careful and keep myself safe, and I need to endure occasional visits from the police. But, all in all the relationship is good, so I don't have many issues.

This will affect me for the rest of my life, so I may as well get used to it :-)